Dating in the digital age is not fun. It feels more like a job interview than romance.

I joined on Valentine’s Day 2014. One year later, I responded to a crazy guy and that was the end. I had to get off. I will share that story another time.

Then I joined eHarmony. Hardly anyone looked at my profile. Perhaps I had the restrictions too high, or maybe there weren’t enough guys on that platform. They asked a lot of questions, but I only went on one date in about 6 months. It was not worth the price.

So, today I signed back up for Match. I am scared of meeting crazy people, but I am even more scared of falling in love. How will I know if he is the right person? Part of my heart still belongs to my ex-boyfriend. I have prayed that things could change so that we could be together again, but only time will tell.

I know this much; my future husband will love God, treat me like a queen, but also put me in my place if my ego gets too big. I trust him with my life. He will tell me the truth with love, because I am not perfect and need someone to call me on my shit. He will dance with me, even if it is just in our kitchen. He will buy me flowers, not for Valentine’s Day, but for random, for no reason occasions. He will introduce me to his friends and family because he is proud of me. He will compliment me and encourage me. He cares about his health because he wants to be able to take care of me in my old age. He holds me when I cry, and is not afraid to cry in front of me when he feels sad, because he knows that I hurt when he hurts and I want to hold him too.

He has his own interests and I will support him in his need and desire to pursue those passions, but will check in with me to make sure there is not something that I need. I like that he goes out to see his friends, because he always has great stories to tell me when he comes home. Oh, and he is a great kisser.
He is my partner, my leader, my best friend, and my confidant. I love the song, Dear Future Husbandseems about right.

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I have been on Match for 6 hours now and have 120 views, 17 emails and 15 photo likes. Is that good? Will any of those guys be in my future? I doubt it, but will attempt to have an open mind.

Dear God,
You know what I need before I even ask. Please help me find my partner, the man you designed to be my perfect mate. In a world with billions of people, it feels like it would take a miracle to find him, but I know that all things are possible when I trust in You. Thank you for giving me enough patience and courage to go through this process. In Jesus’ Name, Amen