July 1, 2008. My husband came home with the news that he was no longer employed. It was one of those times that I felt the Lord working in our lives and convinced my spouse to have faith. We were reading a daily devotional, “Moments Together for Couples” by Dennis Rainey.
The timing could not have been better. We had just received a government stimulus and my spouse received his entitled bonus. This amount was just enough to tide us over.
Within six weeks, he was employed again. It was certainly an answer to prayer. During that time of spiritual commitment, my spouse made promises to find a church together to attend in our new community where the new job was located. He never kept that promise. He refused to continue our devotions.
I share this story because of all the turning points in our marriage, this was the one that I now recognize as an opportunity from God that we squandered as humans. Perhaps I could have pushed harder for him to continue our daily devotions. Perhaps I let my hurt get in the way of effectively communicating my needs as a Christian wife.
So now that I know better, I will try to do better.
“Better is the end of a thing than its beginning, and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit. Be not quick in your spirit to become angry, for anger lodges in the bosom of fools. Say not, “Why were the former days better than these?” For it is not from wisdom that you ask this. Wisdom is good with an inheritance, an advantage to those who see the sun.”
Ecclesiastes 7:8-11 ESV
We thank you Lord that we can cry out to you when we are in pain, scared, suffering or in need. You are faithful, Lord and we praise you as our ever-loving provider. Sometimes the things we need most are the things we cannot see like patience, wisdom, and discernment. You know our every need Lord, and help us to truly understand what it is that we lacking, especially when it comes to dealing with the person we are supposed to love most.
Help us to recognize your miracles and answered prayers. Even the small miracles remind us to continue on the path you have designed for our lives before the day we were born.
In the name of Jesus I pray,